delamente:

I want to just squeeze you until we’re better,
hold you tight enough to remember the dreams of forever,
kiss hard enough to remember when days were only about being together,
now my heart feels like drying wet leather,
so hurt I wouldn’t mind selling it as pleather,
broken from watching promises float like feathers,
empty from brutal words tossed back and forth like tether,
my skies covered no change in the weather,
I wish I could move on now more than ever

My running heart always walking streets away from promising men in jeans
You simultaneously in a dark alley and glowing under sunshine trees
The one thing I asked you to never let me feel alone please
My back bone so badly wants to carry me to escape
Return to just doing and focusing on faith
Run away from you to just catch a break

But I’m not goin anywhere because the few streets I cross
My knees give and all I can think about is what I’ve lost
All the veins to my soul will never deny you’re the boss
My emotions in debt but you’re so worth the cost

I just want me and you to be happy
I’ve swallowed tears made of glass gladly
Some reason you can’t see the scars sadly
I need the other side of you while you’re needing me so badly
I know I’ve handled so much of us passively
Hoping you’d save us but I’m reminded you’re busy actually
This word vomit may hardly be significant to you
but to me it’s the one thing I know I’ve paid my dues
I swore I’d never come unglued
Not again, but maybe that’s where I danced with satan because I wouldn’t even for you
I hope you can see the level of broken as my face fades to blue

I want to hate you but I know you don’t mean to
I want to never see you again but I know I could pretend to want everything else but it’ll always be you
Every dark desire
Every level of burning fire

It’s all about you and I have to breathe that in
Every pure step and every sin
Cross my fingers forming scabs begin
I want to trust you because you’ve always said you always win.